You may want to find a professional therapist to help you through this transition. It really helped me overcome a lot of my own issues.

I should change my beliefs. Simple as that.

But the problem is I don’t know HOW to change my beliefs. My father is very, very negative. I just don’t know why….don’t know why someone’s father cannot even support and encourage to do what he loves.

It silently breaks my heart.

He affects my negative thinking. I don’t want it anymore. I have to break free of him and be independent. I have to, that way he probably won’t get on my case anymore.

My plan is actually already set in motion, I DO have a plan, a plan that will bring me much success.

The problem….my father does not support me. I WANT support from my family. They are important to me. But if they don’t show support. I have to cut the line eventually, I can’t go on like this anymore

Look, you’ve stopped lying to yourself. That’s awesome. Now you need a plan to leverage your superpowers. A plan that you can get excited about. Yes, you will have doubts and emotional pain, but you have to find a way to lean into these fears, embrace them.

I would love to help you some more. I coach clients such as yourself to help break through bad habits and develop good habits that support your dreams. If you aren’t ready for this I understand, but know that you need to find someone to help you through these issues.

Your post is exactly what I would have written if I had a successful career. However, my thick skull is the part where I’m currently at right now.

In fact, my skull is probably thicker than everyone elses’. The thing is, I have 4-year college degree, but I have never had a “real” job. Therefore, my thick skull tells me I will NEVER EVEN find a job. I mean, I visualize all the time about me working at a job. Yeah, it feels good and all, but the thing is deep down inside I DON’T EVEN BELIEVE IT. I just don’t believe I will ever find a job, you know, like how some people believe that hey will never find the love of their Life?

I know where the low self-esteem and confidence come from. My childhood with parents berating me and telling me that I need good grades…and STILL telling me that my Economics degree is worthless and that I NEED another set of SKILLS. I NEED to get this belief out of my head, I HAVE TO or else it might ruin my Life.

I….don’t know….I can’t even believe that I will ever be independent. Own a car, a house……

I just….it just seems so alien to me…..I　don’t know what to do….

You know, for me it’s probably not even about money or something that I like. It’s just finding a RESPECTABLE job. Make money, and not McDonald’s money.